Monday, 6 December 2010

Pressed ...

I was demanded

you to be revealed
to be told

my secret
my behold

I was not fooled
for I know

once they know ...
there will be saboteurs
to condemn
tare our hearts
so you can never reach
while I stand frozen

You are one thing I hold
never be told ...

For I,
forever contained
within our sanctum

Sunday, 5 December 2010

Wish granted

So how did you know
if not the salty sea air carries my whisper
to your silent hearing at sleepless night
could it be pure chance

whichever it is it matters not
once again I hear your singing lyrics
decoded only by my knowing
it's a casting of inner convey
cannot be told
or known
by all
it's our sacrament

I am content
here with a wish granted

revelation under your spell

I needed to spend some time with you tonight
for I hear your heartbeat even you are out of my sight
there is secret codes between you and I
and silly games... oh yes... Silly games
turns our backs when we desperate to hold on tight
only meaning to say how much we needed each other

I dream of your tender longing before I wake
soul sunk to my heart's reach in this belonging
so real it brought smiles to my day when light woke
faithfully yours as always as long as hearts bind by our souls
be here soon, my longing for you swirls by the quiet sea
watching for your careless steps hurrying to my arms

Thursday, 18 November 2010

Darkness...

Inevitably it came
I was a child
sunk visibility 
cannot escape
first a mystery
then a haunting
devoured courage
it left me to an ocean
grip on to the drift wood 
the ocean of turbulent mass
I was left to find  my own voice
firs crying than waning subbing
it's impassive blackness terrifies
but no long longer devastating 
I have looked into vast darkness
and found softness in it's texture
tolerating misunderstood fear
remaining still to be discovered 
it's never been the sauce of fear
it became the surrogate blame
of consciousness we can't control
the real darkness we disown
for fear of facing the mirror
the soft velvety darkness
only sits silently entraps
the ripples of thoughts 
inexhaustible beauty
original existence
next to Light
~*

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

Dance ...

Angel - Fractal Art Digital Art by Jupiter Queen

Resting by my cheek
eyes following your elegant steps
watched as your swirls and turns in floaty dress
how you shine those red shoes to light lusciously
the air around you now blare with zest of life
I gaze and dream in illusive daze
how you've become the lover
entwined to timeless affair

to music and air

Sanctary

We all have secrets,
emotions and thoughts harboured within,
to some extend they may hardly be secrets...
for the etiquette of those watching eyes,
they let it be instead of telling you what they see.

I have no wish for my thoughts to be secrets...
only that I wish not to be exploited and tinted,
by what shadows over the interpreter's mind.
Sometimes spill a layer of mud over your sullen wishes,
and cackle when the light dampen by their own lost.

it is not that I want to keep secrets,
to my concern there is no secrets,
only lockets I place by my chest...
refusing anyone's unholy entry,
my untarnished sanctuary.


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Unspoken desire

It is in my blood
rushes through my skin
trying to reach you
shy
uneasily
trembling in me
in the way that love ignites
how it makes my senses come to life
run and break into million pieces of stars
in your eyes
once again I am a clumsy virtue
I don't know what all of this means 
only that I know it's power over me
it's in how your eyes casting over to me
the silence in your gaze that speaks loudly
I don't know how, how will I ever come to senses 
I rather bath in this drunken pool of unspoken desire

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

Gosh...
I guess a part of us always wanted something unobtainable,
and to certain extend I feel almost obligated to keep it unobtainable.
so I can indulge on the fact that it allows us to dream, to wish...
the expectant of the next moment and what will become of it.
Somehow I think there is a invisible dimension,
holding all that we can't grasp solid in life,
we play with those metaphorical beings
between wake and sleep,
between light and dark,
it's somewhere around the corner of our eyes,
the dimension where a oracle center herself
she gaze into what seems to be empty spaces
where the abstract patterns and shapes
are mathematical miseries to us...
and tell you what becomes...
I need to see my oracle ...

It's a frosty foggy day, it seems to have frozen my brain,
as I feel light headed and out on space when I walked in the house...
I guess that's how it feels when the brain melt in room temperature :D

Monday, 15 November 2010

Unborn pages turn ...

How my heart stuck on my chest
as the red blood cells rushes
blushing my cheek when I grin
reading what you said in night's warm heat
oh boy, no one can invoke such titter

what it is in your devious smile
that makes you appear when I asleep
and strike 3 beats ahead of mine
when you came close to me

I felt your heart thump
when I had to leave
a gentle thud always heard
to sooth the shadow in your eyes
became my wish, to stay every time
adoring your secret vulnerability

sigh~
such a tough man you meant to be
yet 1001 ways you gave in
inconcealable emitting
to a visibly longing
stringing my heart to sing

yet beneath hush tears
I remain ambivalent
in your witness
sealing my kisses in

for that I abide,
to render relentless will of my
inevitably, remaining indefinite
heading stations to unknown myth
fated onwards... a long begone journey

Then I,
turned those sealed kisses
into silent echo
unspoken love notes
to our spaces in between
cast it away from gravity
with a spell of eternity
just as it should be

Tuesday, 2 November 2010

Horus

in the sleeping light of river Nile
half waken to steps of time
your immortal bless
watching over
like a deep humming
in the ground of earth
call me warm me
in breathless existence
never part
a secret dimension
only to eyes of pure
behold me
arrested in our silent region

< added 03.nov.2010>
Holding what I need
I step into the darkness beneath your knees
whispers of fear brushed by my frozen ears
yet my mind has not turned
here my heart is heading
to be at that of fate
be closer
silence
burns the lights in your eyes
I have waited a million years
to be in your embrace once again
lay your blessing on my chest
you always do
as a God
alchesmising the universe within

Sunday, 31 October 2010

Happy Halloween

What can be better time
to linger with lights and shades
looking for my shadow
in disguise of death
and horror
children's laughter
how fearless they
and innocent as the moon beams our path
embracing skeletons monsters
we all run from in nightmares
it's a time of facing our fear
and bring light to our closets
set our haunting spirits on fire
for the delight
of childlike play
tricks or treats
open your door
would you
give us
smiles and sweets ~

Wednesday, 20 October 2010

Politics

It is positioned
with spices of division
and colors of unquestioned favor
hunger for blood
smear across faceless hatred
Wars stormed
religions nations races and faiths
perhaps games for power
to unite or to deem one's glory or shadow
what can we say
the moves of our battle steady on
to destiny unclear

Friday, 15 October 2010

In search

  Time stand still 
all glimpse of fate was unreal 
how compelled was I 
 by such wish to be immortal
   the fragility of human
so real 
under watchful eyes of collective soul 
turned my back to bitter revenge of lost
  
walk on I 
 never look back 
leaving trails of cloud behind

This is my diary

It was a good day, although very tired of sitting in front of my lap top, some works has to be done. A dream remains a dream if we refrain ourselves to pursue the vision that makes our blood rush with beatings of our hearts. We are thrilled to adventures but we learn to dismiss the calling and repress our desires to be truly successful... for the fear of failure... for the belief that we were unworthy... for every mistake we have made, we weight our steps... to the ball and chain... revolution ! It's break out time or die alive.

Quietly I have been watching 
am I searching or am I containing
cannot be sure of which is the right word
But that wind does not leave me alone
blows and howls at my ear
shouting and whispering
I secretly enjoy
the might of the air & flair
Take me in and throw me out
I am bewildered
as I sould